My world

Before this never in a million years I would dream that I will ever ever have a boyfriend. I would always tell myself that no guy will ever want me and now when there's one blind fool who loves me enough to be my boyfriend, I hate to even think about not having him in my life anymore. I just don't think I can survive. But yet he has to say goodbye so many times. Now I realize I just can't live one day without your existence

Strong

Okay I've made my mind. Its time to stop being stupid and unreasonable. It's not the time anymore. People need you and all I have to do is be strong! No worries I'll always be there for your. Even though you won't tell me anything or you don't really need me I'll still be there. I won't say no whenever you need an ear. Can't give you a shoulder but I'm here. I'll be strong instead for you. You don't have to be there for me because I know time and situation forbid it. But I will still face the fact because I can :) i'll always be there for you. That's a promise.

sometimes a little pampering here and there will be nice

how much do you have to show yourself so that a person believe what you say?

how much do you have to show to a person how much you love him/her till he/she believes your love?

how much can one take?

the only thing a girl, no me, the only thing I always ask for its that simple little things. I don't ask for expensive gifts more like I don't ask for gifts I just always ask for that simple thing. And yet when it's this close to watching somebody you love leave you realise you have nothing much.

question

How much will a person know how much the other person truly love them?

How much will it only be enough? For me I'll say is that nobody will ever knows my devotion and love towards a person. I don't usually express myself neither will I go around telling anybody how much I love them that's why I loose people easily. But then again its not really a bad thing because then when the person don't know about it so when that one person chooses to leave you they won't feel guilty or bad no?

When I put my everything to one person it means I love him or her so much that I trust them but sadly most of the time these people walk away from me. Till a point proving myself to people becomes nothing.
I believe if one cares for you they will be able to feel it with their heart without me telling them anytHing.

Now the thing is to find a person who really cares for me and that will never leave, but who?